2005-05-22
eh, short update
Life seems to be going well right now. I have a new boyfriend who adores me, and I adore him. He's absolutely wonderful. and older, meaning more mature than my past occurances. No idea how I ended up with him, no idea how it is that I deserve him, but he's mine and I'm his and that's all that matters. We've not been dating for entirely too long yet, going on the fourth week, but every day in between has been amazing (except for a couple day stint, but that's gone and forgotten now ;) ). Everything he does just seems to be right, everything I do for him he seems to love. It's a perfect match. I've never felt so melded with anyone the way I do with him... I'm not in love yet, it will take some time for that, but I do know that I'm deffinately falling for him. by the way, him=Jake... or PFC Jake (he's a marine :), PFC means Private First Class). He does drink too much for my liking, but whatever... he'll be 21 in a couple months anyway (July 31st).Besides things going well I've been purging about the same, one or two times a day. Though, I'm going to try to knock that down to a few times a week. I need to save my money and just stop it for the sake of stoping. I'm also going to try to quit smoking... I have about a 1/2 pack left and once that's gone, well... that's it for me. Jake is going to quit too (did for a bit, until that stressfull couple days I mentioned... yeah), which will help me to quit as well. It won't be hard, as I've only been smoking since February (when my rat died... and now the other one is taking a complete turn for the worst... so yeah, don't know what I'm going to do when he passes).
My head is all over the place right now... totally weird entry style... but I'm in a relatively good mood at least.